to run until all the breath evacuates my lungs

and I drop on the floor gasping for air

to yell at the top of voice

until every vocal chord in my throat twists and breaks

to wale on a guitar

for so long my arms tremble and so hard my fingers bleed

to tell every truth in my brain’s athenaeum

empty all the forbidden texts from my vault until tears flow from my seeing holes

to lose control

take my hands off the wheel for one full second and not worry about what happens

because being afraid is natural and nobody knows where anyone is going

we can prepare all we want but sometimes life throws curve balls

and I have to except that I can’t always control my failures

but I can control how I deal with my defeat

and have the courage to carry on

I want

what I Really want is

to live life like no one has before me and to love life like no one after

but what I need to finish this mixtape.